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Found My Stalker

Wednesday, March 3rd, 2010

With some insightful help from some very good friends who’ve got my back I found out who my stalker was. In almost exactly 24 hours since this person first attempted to post some nasty vitriol on my blog, I now know who he is and why he did it.

It’s not a woman. Not an African American. Not someone who has the ability to buy ads in Ebony or Essence magazine.

It’s an actor, someone I once wanted to work with, but whose professionalism worried me. Then he exhibited behavior that forced me to no longer consider him. I moved on. I guess he never got over it even though this was over 2 1/2 years ago.

Even if I don’t consider the fact that I took this guy to lunch (and paid) and loaned him money, the deed is dastardly. Let’s call it what it is: it’s fucked up.

But now that I know who and what I’m looking for, there’s peace in the Bell spirit once again.

A Good Day In Hollywood And Beyond

Wednesday, March 3rd, 2010

Two good things happened today on the heels of a stupid occurrence of someone trying to stalk me and besmirch my good name ;-)

I was asked by a friend to submit a scene to a Directing Actors group. In the processof trying to decide what script to make I became reacquainted with my sci-fi script, Renascence Odyssey. I’d completely forgotten about the script –stoopid me! I grabbed a scene, the first time the main characters meet  — did a quick edit because the performing actors in the workshop wouldn’t be privy to the back story, and emailed it. I was concerned because it’s sci-fi and I wasn’t sure if the scene was what he needed. And as a writer, I’m never 100% satisfied with my work.

Thirty minutes later my friend called me. My heart raced. Shit, he hated it, I thought. To the contrary, he thought it was perfect. Most of the actors in the group are African American and don’t often get to practice/perform sci-fi scenes. There’s a surrealism in sci-fi that is similar to and different from contemporary drama.

Whew. I was happy. Even better: I’ll get to see the actors perform my scene during a live UStream. Nice.

Checked my email again and one of the performers from Resurrection of Serious Rogers sent me a note. She was excited about the sneak peek of this web series and had mentioned it to her acting class. The instructor then asked her to invite me in to discuss my casting methods, what I look for, and how I work and network with people in the industry. Nice.

Last time I spoke in front of a group it was the Long Beach College’s newly formed film society. The attendees were all folks who wanted to make a film, but hadn’t yet. The film class will be a group of working actors. Should be fun

I Have A Stalker…

Wednesday, March 3rd, 2010

I have a stalker. Not the game STALKER but a live person (or persons) who is pissed at me for some reason.

I place articles and news releases on various press release web sites. The following message is from someone who thought that hitting the contact button would allow them to post message alongside the news release. Instead, the message was delivered to my email address.

Evidently I’ve pissed someone off. I have no idea who it is. However, unknown to them, Wordpress logs the IP address of the originating server. I did a trace back to…and this is hilarious…The Tropicana Resort & Casino on the Boardwalk in Atlantic City, New Jersey. 2831 Boardwalk, Atlantic City. WTF?

The following is the message in its entirety. I edited nothing. I just did a simple copy and paste. Turns out that the person also tried to post a comment on this blog post using a cut&paste too.

ATTN ALL MEMBERS OF BROKEN HEART AND FOLLOWERS OF THESE PROJECTS AND MOVIES.  DO NOT PURCHASE OR ENTERTAIN YOUR INTELLIGENCE BY SUBSCRIBING TO ANGELO JEROME BELL AND HIS ASSOCIATES ESPECIALLY HIS PRODUCTION COMPANY SIMPLY BECAUSE HE IS A CROOK AND THE ENTIRE PRODUCTION COMPANY IS A SCAM. ANGELO BELL IS A CON ARTIST AND OUT TO GET YOUR MONEY THAT WILL NOT OFFER NOTHING IN RETURN.  HE IS SIMPLY FULL OF HIMSELF AND HIS IDEAS ARE FROM PAST AND PREVIOUS ASSOCIATES HE SOCIALIZED WITH FROM HIS PAST.  ALL OF HIS IDEAS HAVE BEEN STOLEN FROM ACQUAINTANCES.

IF YOU WANT TO THROW YOUR GOOD MONEY AWAY, CONTINUE TO SUPPORT THIS WANNA TO BE PRODUCER WRITING THEFT AND CHUMP ON THE RUN.   YOU BE BETTER OFF BUYING A MR. SOFTEE ICE CREAM AT LEAST YOU CAN HAVE MORE SATISFACTION IN A SHORTER PERIOD OF TIME.

MR. BELL IS NOTHING BUT A SCAM ARTIST.  THE EMAILS YOU ALL HAVE RECEIVED FROM NIGERIA (WHICH ARE CONFIRMED SCAMS) ARE MORE LEGIT THAN ANGELO BELL.

STAY TUNED AND READ MY FULL PAGE ADS IN UP AND COMING ESSENCE AND EBONY MAGAZINES ON THIS SCAM ARTIST.

So apparently this person who writes in all caps and with the grammar level of a second-grader is going to write about me in Essence and Ebony magazines. Hey, there’s no such thing as bad publicity, huh?

Here’s what my Sherlock Holmes thinking has deduced:

  1. This person is an African American (i.e. they reference Essence and Ebony magazines)
  2. This person is either over sixty, African American, or white trash (they’re in frickin’ Atlantic City for chrissakes!)
  3. This person is fairly Internet-dumb. (who doesn’t know IP addresses are logged?)
  4. They’re pissed at me.
  5. This person is stupid. If my ideas aren’t mine, who the hell made the 13 films my name is on? My doppleganger?
  6. It’s a woman. A guy would simply punch me in the mouth (or try to — but you really don’t want to be around me when I lose my temper. Trust me)
  7. It’s possible this person is someone I knew in New York (but I haven’t been back to NY in over 7 years)
  8. This person is really pissed at me.
  9. This person is named Christine Platt.  At least that’s what the bogus email to a Hotmail account said.
  10. I don’t know a Christine Platt from Adam. Especially not one from LPHS.ADMIN.HARRIETTE??? (Again, I must put the blame on my doppleganger who’s been hanging out with undesirables lately)
  11. This person isn’t really going to write an article about me in Ebony magazine. (ooo, can I be the centerfold?!)

All things considered, I’ve lived a fairly mundane and uneventful life for the past year and I try to be a good person. But fuck with me and there’s a whole other side that even scares me.

So stalker beware.  Bruce Banner said it best, “Don’t make me angry. You won’t like me when I’m angry.”

I’m waiting for you.

Dead Ends, Labyrinths and Thick Skin

Saturday, February 27th, 2010

In seven years of doing this filmmaking thing, I’ve run into enough dead ends to give myself a concussion and a subdural hemotoma several times over. I’ve taken wrong turns, taken bad advice, jumped the gun, moved too slow, lacked confidence, had too much confidence and been promised the world, but delivered an I.O.U.

I was chatting on Facebook with my UK filmmaker friend, David Baker after reading his article about having thick skin. As of this blog post, David is 10-15 days away from knowing if he’s going to get the money to make his next film, Death Movie.  He wrote a blog about his state of mind titled, Counting Chickens. In a nutshell, David isn’t assuming a damn thing about the money. As he put it, the only time the answer is yes is when the cash ends up in your bank account.

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Life is a beautiful maze

This got me thinking about the challenges I mentioned above. I have resigned to expect, deal with and ultimately get over every disappointment that happens on this filmmaking journey. Sure, I’ll bump my head, piss someone off, miss an opportunity — but that’s all a part of the process. When you choose a direction I believe you’ve got to see it through. It how you learn. There’s no point in looking back, because either you’ve learned a lesson or you haven’t. My goal is to learn from every misstep and mistake.

However, there is one thing I won’t deal with. Empty Promises. I’ve been promised lots and lots of things. From money, to equipment, to introductions to millionaire investors — someone along the way has told me they would perform and provide in a way I had never asked them to perform and provide. Unfortunately, they were full of shit.

So like David, I don’t count my chickens before they’re hatched. I wait.

I don't really mean it

I don't really mean it

The bigger problem here is that quite often people offer to do things knowing full well they have no intention (or no ability) to follow through. Why? Why put me through it? Why put us through it? Not long ago a dood responded to my craigslist ad. I was selling something to raise money for my film. He responded and insinuated that he had some ideas about distribution and could possible help me get money. I contacted him, followed up, and did my due diligence to make sure I wasn’t missing an opportunity. However, in the back of my head I felt this was too good to be true. It was. When I pressed him to make a firm statement as to what service he was offering he feigned insult and dashed away.

The same thing goes for folks who offer services then pull out without a word. I had a guy recently who contacted me on Facebook about a composing opportunity. He told me all these wonderful things about what he could do. He never asked what the budget was. When I told him the payment arrangement I had in place and asked to hear samples of his work he never responded to my email. Naturally I assumed that he did not want to work for the specific payment arrangement. That’s cool. But why behave in such a manner? All he had to do was decline and offer to stay in touch for future assignments.

"I promise..."

"I promise..."

I’m pretty straightforward. Particularly when I’m making a film I try to lay it all out: what I can do, can afford, will try to do, etc. Too many people talk and talk and talk. All their sound and fury signifies nothing because they haven’t asked for what they need or haven’t clearly stated what they can do.

So, every time some awesome new opportunity presents itself I put my tongue in my cheek and think, “Let’s see how this plays out.” Then I smile and say, “”Sure, let’s talk.”

Social Media Revolution (?)

Friday, February 5th, 2010

What is the Social Media Revolution exactly? This video will help you understand the vastness of its impact on society.

Did You Know? 4.0

Friday, February 5th, 2010

I was introduced to this video by David Branin during a Facebook discussion with he and Sheri Candler (@Shericand). It’s brilliantly done and incredibly informative. If you didn’t know some of this stuff, now you do ;-)

A Rollercoaster Ride Where Action Begets Good Luck

Saturday, January 16th, 2010

It’s been a long time since I wrote a post that wasn’t specifically about Broken Hearts Club or Resurrection of Serious Rogers, so today is a good time to write one.

But first, a word from our sponsor:

  • Broken Hearts Club is coming to iTunes and Amazon.com very soon. Stay tuned.
  • We just completed a photoshoot and art work for Resurrection of Serious Rogers. In a word: smokin’!  You’ll find links on my blog. Look around and have fun.

Filmmaking is such a rollercoaster ride. And in this day where there is so much more a filmmaker needs to do and know, it can be emotionally and physically draining. If a filmmaker wants to make a film and sort of get lost in the sauce amongst a sea of indie films, it’s very easy to do. But marketing and promotion of a film, web series, short film, etc is the foundation for any level of success in independent filmmaking. This isn’t to say that, good marketing=automatic distribution deal. Far from it. But deep, penetrating and informative marketing means exposure. Without exposure and public awareness an un-marketed film is just a tree crashing in the woods with no one around to hear it. Does it make a sound?

While the actors and everyone else are preparing to lay down some serious skill when we shoot, the producer (i.e. creator, writer, director, etc) is constantly worried that something will happen to derail the production. The producer is also trying to keep everyone motivated and inspired. The producer is worried about money, money that is needed, money that doesn’t exist and money that is running out.

Last week after the table read for Serious Rogers I had a coffee meet with Sheri Candler, a Twitter friend who introduced me to Nathan Novero, the CIFGuy on YouTube. Before Sheri arrived I started chatting with this gentleman named D.T. who said he was a filmmaker — on the business side. We talked about a few enlightening business aspects of indie filmmaking. However, the underlying philosophy we both agreed upon was that to make a film, one must have the balls to go out and make the damn film. Sure, you can be scared. You can feel overwhelmed. You can get depressed. You can feel betrayed. You can get angry. You can be frustrated. But the end result is, make your damn film (and you can substitute, web series, script, video blog etc here).

So what’s my point? My point is, that I don’t see my indie filmmaking endeavors as a task that can be allowed to continue indefinitely.  I don’t expect (nor do I want) to be forced into making no-budget films at age 50, after being in this industry for 25 years. No sir. So everything I go through, even my depression, frustration and loneliness, is geared toward one end alone — not having a good little film that screens to thousands of empty seats, you know the  film in the empty forest with no one in earshot to confirm that it actually screened?

I’ve also realized that sitting around waiting for good luck to happen is dumb. Good luck comes through action. My action of taking a job in 2000, created the good luck of having the dollars to fund nine of my films. I hated the job, but I stayed there because it provided me with Christmas bonuses (oh, there’s a film), profit sharing (there’s two more films) and a sale-of-the-company-bonus (whooops, I just funded Broken Hearts Club for $100K). It also gave me casting and audition space, a primo office location to shoot in, and lots of free parking.

The action of listing Broken Hearts Club on Mandy.com created the good luck of being seen by my current sales agent (Goliath promotions).

So I must continue to take action. Not tomorrow, today. That means the rollercoaster ride of indie filmmaking is simply the prelude to more good luck.  And then, if I’m fortunate and I learn to promote myself, my films, and the people who’ve stood by me, there will be a tree standing tall in the forest, and there will be many many people around to see it. Thought it will not fall it shall make a sound. And many people will be there to witness it.

Make your damn film, people. Stop coming up with reasons not to make it, and find the one special reason why you will make it. The action will bring forth good luck.

Will You Point To The Closet?

Thursday, December 31st, 2009

I read an article on Will Smith and he said something about his philosophy of life that resonates with me. It’s a “code” that
he and his friends developed and live by. Basically, it goes like this…(I will paraphrase)
You’re sitting in a room with your friends. When suddenly there’s a commotion at the front door. Apparently one of your
friends has done something really stupid. Maybe he’s slept with another man’s wife, stolen money, beat someone up or
whatever and there is someone at the door with a gun
Just before the gunman enters your friend manages to slip into the closet unseen. The gunman bursts in waving a gun.
He’s furious beyond measure. He sticks the gun in your face and demands to know, “Where is he?”
So, the question is: Are you the person who will point at the closet door?
Now it’s partly a trick question because you cannot make that decision while the gun is in your face and the danger of
death is imminent. The trick is, you already must know what kind of person you are. You must ALREADY have decided long
ago if you are the person who will or will not point at the closet door. Because once you have consciously made that
decision, that is how you will live the rest of your life.
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I read an article about Will Smith and he mentioned something about his personal philosophy. It something that resonates with me. It’s a “code” that he and his friends created and live by. Basically, it goes like this…(I will paraphrase)

You’re sitting in a room with your friends. When suddenly there’s a commotion at the front door. Apparently one of your friends has done something really stupid. Maybe he’s slept with another man’s wife, stolen money, beat someone up or whatever and there is someone at the door with a gun.

Just before the gunman enters, your friend manages to slip into the closet unseen. The gunman bursts in waving a gun. He’s furious beyond measure. He sticks the gun in your face and demands to know, “Where is he?”

So, the question is: Are you the person who will point at the closet door?

Now it’s partly a trick question because you cannot make that decision while the gun is in your face and the danger of death is imminent. The trick is, you must already know what kind of person you are. You must have decided long ago that you are the person who will or will not point at the closet door. Because once you have consciously made that decision, that is how you will live the rest of your life.

So: Will you point to the closet door. Will you gossip on a friend?  Will you cheat on a test? Will you lie to save your own skin? Will you steal? Have you made up your mind about the things you will or won’t do?

Schmuck-Free New Year’s Resolutions

Tuesday, December 29th, 2009

Every year around this time many folks begin discussing their plans for change. They call it their New Year’s Resolution. Whether the plan is to focus on family, move up in their career, start a new hobby, lose weight, gain weight — it all stems from an inner desire to change.  That desire is fed by the knowledge that change is indeed needed.

And every year, around this time, some asshole, big mouth, opinionated schmuck starts telling everyone how they don’t believe in New Year’s Resolutions, and how they don’t understand why people don’t change now instead of waiting for the New Year. They finish off by stating how most people never complete their resolutions. A schmuck is like a sucker MC. All talk. No action. No game. No skill.

Assholes. Every single one of them.

Don’t let them bring you down. The fact that you acknowledge the need for change in your life is awesome! The act that you want to re-focus your energies to achieve your passions is powerful. Don’t let some malcontent take the fizz out of your soda. If they don’t believe in resolutions that’s fine. At the very least they should be a good friend and support you in your endeavors — not seek to deflate them by belittling your effects.

I don’t care what stats they quote, these folks are middle-of-the-road mediocre assholes. Most think too highly of themselves to acknowledge that fact that they need some change in their lives. The fact is, most are too afraid to do anything outside of their box of comfort and they want to keep you down with them. Don’t let them.

Tell them to shut up and keep making your New Year’s Resolution. And make it schmuck-free.

Don’t Call It A “Comeback”

Tuesday, December 22nd, 2009

I think the biggest accomplishment for me in 2009 is having survived it.

There were many obstacles, personal and professional, that could have easily made 2009 a dismal year. Going 0-for-10 with my first film festival submissions for Broken Hearts Club, broken relationships, having spent so much time away from production, and many many mistakes I’ve made in judgment.

But having survived 2009 and being in a position to look forward to 2010 with promise is huge. I have big things planned for 2010. In the same way Broken Hearts Club was the culmination of all I’ve learned about writing, storytelling, directing and producing, 2010 will be the year I manifest all I know about making a living from filmmaking.

Don’t call it a comeback. I’ve been here for years. I’ve made and lost friends. I’ve made and lost money. I’ve made and lost opportunities. But it has been a tremendous learning experience. And I’m still here. Will I be around five years from now? You betcha. And it will all start anew in 2010. Broken Hearts Club will have officially launched in Europe and Africa. Resurrection of Serious Rogers will be streaming to hardcore fans on the Internet. Shadowkeeper will have amassed a loyal following of rabid fans, eager for more story-driven, well-written drama. I’ll be in production for Trouble In Paradise (Broken Hearts Club II), and hopefully shooting in Hawaii.

What I’m most excited about is putting together a smart, strategic plan, and incorporating elements of social media marketing and savvy business sense into each project’s distribution process. I’ve learned from some smart and savvy people who’ve mentored me. I’ve forged alliances with people who understand the business importance of marketing and promotion. I’ve met folks who understand that the power of Twitter and Facebook lies not in one’s ability to entertain  the masses with silliness or self-importance, but in inspiring, touching and supporting. Yes, it’s a social tool, but for professionals it’s a business tool. I try to treat it as such.

Yes, I just stepped onto my soapbox. That’s because in this last year I’ve met and heard from many people who say they want to achieve something awesome, but then they don’t do it. They don’t work. They don’t aspire. In 2009 I’ve heard the phrase, “hardest working person I know,” many times. Then I discover that the person in question is single, has no kids, no spouse, no significant other, shares rent with a roommate or lives with their parents. If you got all these things working in your favor you should be a hard working person. You don’t get a pat on the back for finding time and energy to work when you’ve got loads of T&E stored in reserve. But show me a husband, a wife, a parent, someone with a demanding full-time job who still manages to write a script, make a film, or pursue an acting career and then you have my attention. From actors with no substantive film credits trying to leverage back-end points on a web series, to producers with nineteen projects in development but no completed projects, it’s all laughable. Show me a writer who hasn’t written anything in a year and I’ll show you someone who has no idea what it takes to be a writer.

I ask a lot of questions when I don’t know something. The problem with that is that many people assume you don’t know anything. My focus on business has been misconstrued as aloofness. But those people haven’t been on my film sets, sets that are renown for their friendliness and calm. My loyalty has been mistaken for weakness. My friendships and business relationships have been taken for granted, even though I have been the bigger giver and driver of business in the relationship.

But the coming of the New Year signals an end to all that.  I’ts about building relationships with hard working business-minded people. It’s about the lessons I’ve learned about separating business and professional relationships. It’s about do what others won’t do.

I would say, “I’m back” but I don’t call it a comeback. I’ve been here for years. I’ve been here mentally, emotionally, and psychologically. In 2010 everyone else gets to see it.

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